Epiphany Now!

So, today I had somewhat of an epiphany! I have been constantly nervous to speak Spanish with native speakers. To some degree, I still am. However, while sitting down this evening, trying on Sperry's that I cannot afford/ do not need, I had an epiphany.

I just all of the sudden felt like I am going to be fine. I will obviously struggle with speaking in proper grammar at first; however, I do know enough to get my point across regardless of proper grammar. If I speak with my heart rather than my mind, I am gonna be just plain dandy! I know those listening to me will see my trying to convey my deep, elaborate feelings through small and simple words and thoughts. This ---yes this, will make up for my lack of fluency.

As my life of normalcy and habit comes to an end here in the next couple weeks, I am having a lot more time to think and ponder. I really like it -- and hate it. With more time to think comes more epiphanies. But also at the same time I am realizing how much I have to do before I go. I constantly find myself seeing more and more chaos in my life that I need to eliminate before I leave.

Just in case anyone out there who has served a mission reads this -- can we bring pictures of home along with us? I really need some pictures of rain so that I will always know that it exists regardless of seeing it.

My mind just went 100% blank, so that's all for now folks...thanks for wasting your time on my blog!